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2003-03-17 - 2:45 a.m. Huggybear747: Sometimes I feel like I'm speaking in code Huggybear747: sometimes I think I confuse more then enlighten but I'd spend that confusion just for the chance more or less instead of just giving it straight and no chaser Huggybear747: I'm thinking of just stop being funny fanaticalsadist: why? Huggybear747: I don't know. Huggybear747: I've done it before Huggybear747: but my smartass wants to always jump out and pounce fanaticalsadist: seems an abrupt departure for no reason fanaticalsadist: then let it Huggybear747: sometimes the timing is just too good. Huggybear747: But you see, when pain hits me, it hits hard Huggybear747: the silence is deafening fanaticalsadist: i understand completely Huggybear747: Like I got real depressed on Friday just off a vibe that I was annoying Huggybear747: ruined my whole evening fanaticalsadist: i'm terribly moody Huggybear747: red bull and vodka and all fanaticalsadist: i read into things that rationally i know isn't true Huggybear747: I think I'm manic fanaticalsadist: but my emotions fail to see past fanaticalsadist: i am fanaticalsadist: or so i've been diagnosed fanaticalsadist: had my mental hospital stint and all fanaticalsadist: but . i'd rather just feel it out . and be moody . stead of drugged Huggybear747: Well, my mom talked to me about seeing people Huggybear747: Yeah, I don't think paying a psych and taking some Paxil is gonna MAKE IT ALRIGHT fanaticalsadist: exactly Huggybear747: The world has little patience sometimes fanaticalsadist: most of the time Huggybear747: yeah, my bad Huggybear747: damn world Huggybear747: I wish encouraging my friends and peers was a marketable thing Huggybear747: Like I want to put an ad for FUN in the yellow pages fanaticalsadist: why no marketable? Huggybear747: maybe I can be a comedian, but there's tons of bi-racial fat kids that think they're funny in the business fanaticalsadist: haaaaaaaaaa Huggybear747: yeah, I guess there's no dignity in paying bills fanaticalsadist: ha . indeed Huggybear747: so why am I trying so hard in doing so? Huggybear747: And why am I so damn lazy? Huggybear747: a daily pondering Huggybear747: with every exhalation Huggybear747: I wonder if the breath was wasted Huggybear747: values. Huggybear747: Damn values. Huggybear747: I'm saying fuck values and then I'm like, Damn I want those shoes over there fanaticalsadist: ah . sorry Huggybear747: I haven't been shopping in awhile, consumerist withdrawl Huggybear747: fucking Ebay Huggybear747: Well, I'm a libra. I like hip hop. Huggybear747: I have a record or two. Huggybear747: I like to be romantic in a funny way Huggybear747: People think I'm quirky I guess fanaticalsadist: what day . i'm a libra too Huggybear747: I think food=love Huggybear747: Word! SCALES REPRESENT! fanaticalsadist: haha. indeed
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