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2004-09-05 - 1:08 p.m. The Human Tornado says: my wireless is playing games with me cinderella umbrella says: i know your pain cinderella umbrella says: mine is annoying sometimes too The Human Tornado says: yeah, so, I'm on the downstairs computer.........sucks cinderella umbrella says: ya, i hate when mine goes wonky. wireless can be awesome but such a pain sometimes The Human Tornado says: but yeah, you were saying? About the deviousness? When you say that word, I think of Dick Dhasteredly and his laughing cancer dog Muttley The Human Tornado says: wonky!?!?! AHAHAHAH cinderella umbrella says: hahahaha The Human Tornado says: This guy at work, his word for drunk=SHNOCKERED cinderella umbrella says: that is a good word The Human Tornado says: anyways, you said something about the "deviousness" about the "you know what" and how you don't like it? The Human Tornado says: explain. cinderella umbrella says: hmmm...i like it in the context as a tool for sex....or self gratification..but, i dont like guys who are obsessed with it....it kinda mirrors my opinion of pornography. not to be overused. The Human Tornado says: He's a young man The Human Tornado says: yeah, porno gets redundant and more disturbing sometimes in a funny way, but more so often in a bad way. cinderella umbrella says: absolutely. cinderella umbrella says: i dont like prepubescent or young men cinderella umbrella says: they freak me out cinderella umbrella says: all self discovery and crap.... cinderella umbrella says: i want to be as far from all that as possible The Human Tornado says: Everyone around me is beginning to go that route cinderella umbrella says: run, while you still can cinderella umbrella says: that is scary The Human Tornado says: what? What's scary? cinderella umbrella says: young men The Human Tornado says: Are you saying I'm scary cinderella umbrella says: hahaha cinderella umbrella says: i thought you were all old and bald and stuff now The Human Tornado says: I feel like it cinderella umbrella says: hahah cinderella umbrella says: you shouldnt The Human Tornado says: I bet that's what everyone else feels like too that's around me cinderella umbrella says: you are neither old nor scary. you are a total cutie pie... The Human Tornado says: But it seems like everyone is also half angry cinderella umbrella says: why? cinderella umbrella says: has the world gone insane? The Human Tornado says: I don't know........the natural state of settling down and settling in The Human Tornado says: the 20 something-I just graduated college and I'm totally unprepared for this kinda shit cinderella umbrella says: i guess its our turn to feel how the gen x people feel. cinderella umbrella says: it gets better though cinderella umbrella says: things get sorted out cinderella umbrella says: it just happens The Human Tornado says: How can it be satisfactory? It just does.......I think that's why people are half angry, but once you start blending in, I guess the mind and "soul" numbs up a bit cinderella umbrella says: yes, i think you have a point. i think the important thing is to ...get out there...do things..travel...dont waste your youth or concentrate on mortality The Human Tornado says: I think people are annoyed by me asking questions cinderella umbrella says: so, keep asking The Human Tornado says: I was called an intellectual last night........I didn't even graduate cinderella umbrella says: haha cinderella umbrella says: you are intellectual. not in the stereotypical old bald wine drinking kind of way though. you are just really witty and amazingly intelligent...well spoken and written..... The Human Tornado says: I think being smart is also a big part of just wanting to settle in and adjust to the world.......asking questions surely doesn't help you on your way, because everyone is finished asking......at least me anyways.......I cannot accept a world where people accept for the sake of "it just happens" cinderella umbrella says: yes, i get that. you are different than most though. it is really hard for me as well to watch people settle. in any way....people settle for anything though..its just how people are. they will settle for the person they are with because they figure nothing better will come along...much the same with jobs, life..everything. The Human Tornado says: Like, for instance, my ex, she's settled in........I remember how wild and crazy she was........and it was sorta weird to see her so mellow........I can understand why she went the way she did......I can accept that she did what she had to do..........but I can't help but notice to feel like she was broken in, or broken down halfway cinderella umbrella says: well, i think that it gets tiring after a while...i am starting to feel that very thing. cinderella umbrella says: but...i wont settle...i am kinda settled..but rebelling against it as much as i can The Human Tornado says: yeah, she's been dead broke for about 2 years now The Human Tornado says: that'll break anyone........ cinderella umbrella says: ya, that is very hard The Human Tornado says: but you know the weird thing though, it's like everything I was for her(*after reading this again I would like to make a correction-WHAT I TRIED TO BE AT LEAST.), is now what she is for him The Human Tornado says: She never liked to sit.........she never liked to be homey........she never wanted to sit down and watch movies and get cozy cinderella umbrella says: well ....its likely not to last then.....unless that is how the roles were supposed to be..but it just didnt turn out that way between you and her. maybe you were too similiar The Human Tornado says: But fast forward 2 years....... The Human Tornado says: I just find it bittersweet as most things I see in her now......I can't help but to feel bittersweet, about the limitation, about the irony, about the mindless chit chatter........ The Human Tornado says: It's like we both know but won't say anything........but it's almost like we're both saying sorry like a broken record to each other cinderella umbrella says: i guess you have to let it go though. i think everyone takes a loss at some point. i hate that sometimes you can be with someone and it not work out...then they get with someone else and become exactly what you wanted and polarly different. The Human Tornado says: it's always weird The Human Tornado says: I've let it go. I can't ever forget, I won't either, but yeah, as I said, I accept that she did what she had to do cinderella umbrella says: ya, it is. i have trouble being around people i ever really clicked with or cared about. all of my breakups have been on good terms..but there was always that hint of neither of us really wanting it..but it still happening for reasons of convenience. The Human Tornado says: yeah, well, if you love something truly, you'll set it free cinderella umbrella says: as i have had to do...a few times.. The Human Tornado says: that's how I look at it. cinderella umbrella says: but....thankfully now i think im kinda figured out.... cinderella umbrella says: except that there is still too much wild ..and .....curious left in me. The Human Tornado says: hahahah The Human Tornado says: word. wild and curious The Human Tornado says: People I think mistake my wanting to know more and my sarcasm and wit as pessimism and apathy at times cinderella umbrella says: hmm.....i just think you are a brain...you are really...hmm...hard to explain i guess...from what i can figure not having met you..but kept track of you online. The Human Tornado says: a brain? The Human Tornado says: Like Pinky and the Brain? cinderella umbrella says: hmmm...wrong word cinderella umbrella says: hahaha cinderella umbrella says: narf cinderella umbrella says: hahaha cinderella umbrella says: yes, you are the brain cinderella umbrella says: hahaha The Human Tornado says: Cindy, everything looks nicer on my life sheet when I'm surrounded by geniuses The Human Tornado says: ups my IQ The Human Tornado says: but I really don't see me asking different questions, maybe I'm smart because I'm stubborn cinderella umbrella says: i understand that....and i feel the same. im afraid most of my life is filled with innane fodder....which my parents take personally having enrolled and had me tested with mensa at 8 years old. so, i am a bit snobby when it comes to intelligence. i hate the elitist community. cinderella umbrella says: you are smart for a lot of reasons..stubborness isnt necessary one of them. cinderella umbrella says: you are relevant The Human Tornado says: mensa at 8??!?! The Human Tornado says: did you get in? cinderella umbrella says: yes....there is an enrollment for children. they make you write insane tests each year....and it is actually quite lame. cinderella umbrella says: i havent taken part in anything involving those weirdos for years. its true that it is great to be around genuises and the elite intellectuals that hang around them...but at the same time...somehow they are the blandest people on earth..or so it seems. The Human Tornado says: I value common sense over IQ cinderella umbrella says: exactly The Human Tornado says: My teacher in high school, wanted me in mensa cinderella umbrella says: and artistic interest and so many things are important to me The Human Tornado says: I thought it was an odd request The Human Tornado says: I think it was because I told her I took one of those take home tests and scored high cinderella umbrella says: mensa is mostly science and math...and really ridiculous amounts of grammar and policy....codes, equations and CRAP..basically. it made my brain fall out. The Human Tornado says: I like those lil visual puzzle thingys they had The Human Tornado says: my friend Bat says I'm a genius because as a kid, I used to drink warm milk before I went to bed, and went to sleep with classical music cinderella umbrella says: ya cinderella umbrella says: you would likely qualify cinderella umbrella says: there are a lot of behaviours that can be related to intellect cinderella umbrella says: and most of them are visible in children The Human Tornado says: especially after the warm milk part cinderella umbrella says: mensa focuses a lot on children now The Human Tornado says: like a cult The Human Tornado says: they are cinderella umbrella says: they are The Human Tornado says: yeah, it seems depressing........geniuses need security blankets like mensa to hold in the egos and honestly share in the confusion with their colleagues that can spell real good and discumbobulate some big numbers cinderella umbrella says: precisely. they are weird. The Human Tornado says: Cindy, if I could buy you a plane ticket, where would you like to go? The Human Tornado says: ...other then strawberry lemon land...... cinderella umbrella says: hahaha cinderella umbrella says: but i love strawberry lemon land cinderella umbrella says: hmmm.....probably....the galapagos The Human Tornado says: to see the big turtles? cinderella umbrella says: i love big turtles. haha cinderella umbrella says: there is just so much to see there i think and it has that element of ..not many people being there..and things that havent been discovered The Human Tornado says: I don't think there's an airport there though The Human Tornado says: you'll probably have to fly to Lima and get a private plane or ferry cinderella umbrella says: hahaha..you are likely right. i want to go scuba diving somewhere interesting.... cinderella umbrella says: when i was a kid i used to watch hours of nature diving shows. haha The Human Tornado says: great barrier reef perhaps? cinderella umbrella says: yes The Human Tornado says: that sounds cool enough to me cinderella umbrella says: i think so too. it just seems like an entirely different world. The Human Tornado says: I want to go to an african jazz dance club cinderella umbrella says: well pumpkin, i think i need a shower.... cinderella umbrella says: and....some other insane body torture like activities only to be endured at the gym cinderella umbrella says: so, i will catch up with you in a bit The Human Tornado says: no doubt The Human Tornado says: work them trapezus-upper dorsimals cinderella umbrella says: so, ciao for now..and dont let this sheep get wet.(bah)(um) cinderella umbrella says: tee hee The Human Tornado says: huh......... cinderella umbrella says: hahaha cinderella umbrella says: yay for confusing boys cinderella umbrella says: talk to you soon The Human Tornado says: aight The Human Tornado says: peass
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