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2002-02-19 - 3:43 p.m. Damn, 2 exams, a quiz, and a lab all in one day, oh my, have the gods blessed me today! I did okay though, I didn't severely fuck up. It was some hard business though. I had one of those "Mind shorts" in Math class where I just couldn't remember shit I knew, I just couldn't put it together, I got a couple wrong to say the least. I aced that Bio exam though, I know that much. My electronic writing quiz, I did okay, I forgot to list ### at the bottom of the corrected radio script.....poo, but I don't think I failed that either. I got to study for Japanese tommorrow, but I got no HEED class tommorrow which will give me the whole day to do so. Now, being the procrastinater I am, I could just fuck around the rest of the day and set aside studying till tommorrow afternoon, but I'm compelled to make little flash cards of the Kana and stuff tonite. I gotta raise these grades, I ran into the Japanese teacher today and I basically said to her I'd commit Hiri-Kiri if I miss another class. Life has gone back to normal for the most part. I'm not having any weird thoughts or feelings of doubt or wanting to just cry for the sake of crying, I'm not going around asking for sympathy. I feel alright, I feel almost distanced right now. I feel like I'm out on my own, in my own lil world. I still interact, I think it's necessary that I do, but I don't feel so grounded now or full of emotion, I think I got what I needed out and it's been dealt with. Thursday night Bat wants me to go to PGH for a b-boy event. I'm trying to see my Cousin in NYC this weekend, eventhough I'm dirt poor. On top of all that, next Monday night, Bobby Prato wants me to take him to Bmore for the National poetry slam thingy. Looks like I'm gonna rack up some miles on the truck and I'll be damned if I gotta pay all that gas. Tommorow is Gina's big day, if UPS doesn't fuck up. The vibrator is coming and I'll give it to her personally, she's bubbly all about it. She's a sweet girl, a virgin (makes me wonder....), she's way too "up there" for me though, I'm too country and she's all rock n roll. Maybe in some odd circumstance, but I seriously doubt it. I'd love to just make out with her while the vibrator is set on, but she don't roll like that.....at least I don't think, but I ain't getting smacked in the face trying to find out. Damn, you see, for girls, trying to find a make out partner, 9 outta 10 fellas are down, but most girls don't roll like that when you ask them. Apparently, you gotta be attractive too, I lack that pretty much and the huevos to ask. That's why the porn industry booms, guys can't get enough make out partners. Green Day was right, MASTURBATION LOST ITS FUN.....I gotta have some excitement or something rolled in. It's really not what I NEED right now, just something like free weed, you don't need it, but hey, you're down if it's all good. Too much watery grrls down here though. Watered attitudes and watered minds. I don't know where I'm getting with this, but shit I wish we could all just set our desires on the table, fuck all the conventions and chit-chatter and get down to business with no guff, no shit. That'd be too easy though. Least god gave men opposible thumbs n a billion dollar porn industry and women vibrators and dildos. I don't know, Just the rantings of a sexually charged individual.................don't listen to me, i don't know what the fuck I'm talking about, how did this entry start again? What an odd weaving of thought...............
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